I don’t know what is going on within me. Something BIG is shifting and I feel very exited.
I had a very dark day yesterday. I felt stuck in attack thoughts and old believes about myself. I felt alone and scared and I was projecting out my fear. The funny thing was that I found out later that day, just by sharing my thoughts with someone, that I had made up a story about a situation that had no truth in it. I had only interpreted it wrongly. It was just a mistake and a misunderstanding. I could see that it was an old pattern I’ve been using for many years. So it all turned into a beautiful forgiveness lesson. A dark cloud had fallen away by bringing it into the light to be released.
So this morning when I woke up I felt that I had no ground to stand on. It felt like – and it still feels like I have no base or a stable ground for me feet to stand on. But I feel great! It feels like such a huge relief and this amazing freedom is expanding within me. I feel free and totally safe not feeling that I belong anywhere in this world. It might sound weird for some when I say this, but I feel more and more that I am not in this world OR of it. I am experiencing the truth – that there is no world.
When I look down with my true vision there is nothing but beautiful empty and bright white space under my feet and also around me. I’ve been feeling so amazingly relaxed lately that I go into these deep meditations where I lose all contact and feeling in the body. The body just isn’t there/here – and that’s actually the pure truth! I am not a body. I am Spirit. I am free. I am experiencing THAT what can’t be explained in words.
This awakening journey is SO deep. The only ‘thing’ that is real is this deep beautiful experience of oneness with pure light and love – with God. I am so grateful for all these experiences I am having. This feeling of gratefulness is so huge that it feels like it floats out of my heart – like there is not enough space in there for it. It brings tears into my eyes when I think about it.
Thank you God for guiding me and for giving me the strength to follow your guidance – even though it sometimes seems like a crazy decision to make, but I trust that YOU got this. It is all for the awakening – that’s all I know and all I have to know, and THAT is so beautiful.
Thank you for being here 💕
I love you 💗
From A Course in Miracles 💗
“The world can add nothing to the power and the glory of God and His holy Sons, but it can blind the Sons to the Father if they behold it. You cannot behold the world and know God. Only one is true. I am come to tell you that the choice of which is true is not yours to make. If it were, you would have destroyed yourself. Yet God did not will the destruction of His creations, having created them for eternity. His Will has saved you, not from yourself but from your illusion of yourself. He has saved you for yourself.”